sorry i havent been up to date.

finals are killing me.

ive been doing kick ass restricting my intake and dropping pounds.

i really have no time to write, i have to go back to studying, but i didnt want to seem like ive dropped off the face of the earth again like last time.

byee <3

im doing pretty well today. =)

i only ate a 60 cal vanilla yogurt at lunch cause all of my sisters were hassling me (being in a sorority is no good, i have 40 girls on my case all the time..), and drank water and diet soda all day. im feeling a little shaky, but its good.

and i have class again tonight, so whoops ;) no time to eat. just a little update.

and i lost half a pound since yesterday morning, not good, not bad though. wish it was more. hopefully tomorrow ill see a change.

hope all you pretties out there are doing well.

<3L

 hiiieee im so excited to be back.

my mom got on my case for a while and realized how fast i was dropping weight and stuff, so i really had to lay low, basically just constricting and stuff and using some tricks to make her think i was eating alot, i managed to maintain weight and even lose a little as soon as i came back to school, but ive been home lately with some medical stuff going on =/ ovarian cysts, fabulous, not the gynos on my case too. whatever, im back at school and things are going well, and im just looking for some of you pretties to inspire me with how thin and beautiful you are.

hope all is well, ladies <3 ill be reading your posts and stuff.

<3 Lex

im back after a vacation with my paarents, i managed to maintain my weight witghout gaining, so thats good.

i feel so fucking fat though, i hate my legs and my stomach, and i dont want to go back to school looking like a cow.

i go back in 2 weeks.. i think i can drop 10 lbs in 14 days, i just have to do a 2 week fast. perhaps eat lettuce, and egg whites. does anyone know exactly how many calories are in egg whites? i heard not too many...

it shouldnt bee to hard for  me, i dropped weight easily before vacation.

im just so sick of being stuck in this body. =/

ill be on tomorrow.

ive been doing so shitty.

tomorrow im going back to not eating at all. it worked so well last week but ive just been around my family and they make me eat all the time, and i gained back 2 pounds.

i read this article in vogue magazine about eating disorders. im sick of people being on my case. i cnt wait to go back to school so i dont have a family fucking keeping tabs on me every single day. i wanna eat when i want and workout when i want. god i hate this.

i need some supporrrtttttt. someone help meeeee.

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nothing to eat yet today, and its almost noon.

i think i can hold out the whole day... i have to work at 4. it sucks working in a restaurant because im constantly around food, so i just keep thinking about how good it smells. but ill be fine, i think. i can do it.

i got on the scale this morning and i lost a pound since yesterday, which is good because i had that icecream last night, so if i fast all day, i should be okay.

leave me something.

ughh so im completely disgusted right now.

my parents brought my sister and i out for icecream, and they made me eat some since i didnt have dinner, but i just got fatfree sugarfree strawberry.

and i want you guys to know, i never post this frequently, but today was my day off and i didnt go to the beach so i had a lot of time to sit on the computer.

i guess my cals are still low? i dont know if its a lie about fatfree sugarfree icecream having no calls, whatever. im just in a shitty mood.

blehh.

someone write to me i need inspiration.

mmmm im so fucking hungry.

this morning i had some strawberries, like i said. and then iced tea, only 5 cals a glass. and then i went to walmart to get a medicine ball and a jump rope so i can burn some extra cals during the day when im bored. then i came home and i was itching for some food and theres chocolate everywherrrrrreeee so i broke down and ate a piece... but i SPIT THAT SHIT OUT. i was so proud of myself. and i was looking at some pages with tips and stuff, and lettuce is a safe food, as well as salsa. so i got some lettuce, practically no cals and dipped it in salsa (which only has 15 cals in 2 tbsps) and ate that for lunch.

53 cals for 1 cup of sliced strawberries (breakfast)
50 cals for iced tea (5 cals a glass of crystal lite, and i just keep continuously drinking it)
15 cals for salsa
5 cals (well say for lettuce, to be safe)


im at 123 cals for the day. id say thats pretty kick ass =)


does it suck that im doing this all for a boy? god i just want to be noticed.


<3 Lex


mmm im feeling a little less hungry now. apparently spicy foods (salsa) halt appetite.

no work today. so its been a good day. danced this morning, so i got my little workout, ill probably go to the gym later too.

im a little bit cranky.

i need some good motivation.

all i at today was a few strawberries. i keep drinking iced tea all day.

im a little shaky.

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so basically i havent used a livejournal since i was a freshman in highschool and now im a sophomore in college.

dance is pretty much my whole life, i do it like everyday, for 5 hours a day, its kind of an obsession.

i made a livejournal so i could write down all the frustrations and everything im feeling and maybe people would talk back to me and give me advice about the little struggles im going through right now.

someone leave me some new loving, or something.